Treasures of Darkness

Most of my life, my distant relationship with Father had me in a state of semi trust and disbelief in His promises for my life. I could not let my heart go in complete abandonment when it came to trusting Him fully with everything.

Losing my husband so soon into our marriage placed me very quickly in a position of deeper trust in the provision the Lord promises so frequently in His word.

Being the sole provider for myself and daughter, my fear to step into absolute rest was based on my own capability, which soon became a very tiring and heavy load to carry. Becoming reliant on my ability to provide, has put me in a mind frame of poverty thinking. I stayed on the platform of fear and doubt which kept me stuck. I never moved in confidence.

You can envision how burdened I have become. Chasing discounts. Looking at something I desperately wanted or needed, but would go and hunt for ways to get it cheaper. Doing DIY projects myself or settling for second best. I found myself on many occasions neatly wrapping up my dreams and hiding them in the back of the shelf with a promise that one day I will get to it.

I see my pattern. I feel the constriction it has placed on my life. My life is robbed of its absolute freedom in knowing that I am provided for.  I ask myself how do I step out in the confidence of His provision for me?

When it is so hard to let go of the control that I have. The control over something that now has now actually become the boss of you and not the other way around.

I have come to the realization and understanding that poverty thinking is a mindset. Knowing that one can, with the simplest of things like changing the way you understand what provision means,  you can move from a place of lack into that free place of prosperity. A place of expectation of abundance in our wealth and health.

When we start to live out of the absolute abundance of His promises, imagine the possibilities that lay before us? The only stumbling block is, if we can dream big enough for everything our Father wants to lavish us with? We need to start dreaming way bigger than what we ever thought capable of.

I am reminded of my favorite scripture verse in Isaiah 45:3. Soon after my husband’s death the verse was given to me. It just got stuck on me and I wanted to know more of what Father was saying. Not just the obvious.

Isaiah 45:3 And I will give thee the treasures of darkness, and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that I, the LORD, which call you by your name, am the God of Israel.

Gosh I get goosebumps just reading that again.  I dissected word for word with the Strong’s Concordance and Hebrew translation. It opened up and I leaned into the Father’s promise.  It has since become my constant reminder and promise to stand upon. I want you to read what Father showed me.

I (YHWH) will, without fail, shoot forth the treasure house which is concealed. It is His aim and purpose to make known to us that we should be certain and sure, without doubt that the self existent one, will call us out as famous guests, by our mark implicating us in honor, the authority and Jesus like character by the supreme and mighty God of Israel – Isaiah 45 vs 3 

Does that not amplify the Fathers heart for us?

I would like to encourage you to sit with your Father in heaven and see what He has in store for you. You will be blown away.