In my last blog about healing with laughter, I commented on the fact that I have a mask on when I am in the company of others. I mentioned that I never presented the true authentic me to the world. I contemplated this and figured that in our upside-down world, people do not understand how others want to be seen or known.
I find myself going into a mode of exploration in finding the true me that I have lost along the way, between this mask and that mask. Who am I truly? How do others see me?
I firmly believe that so many relationships will paint a different picture if we can set the standard with the first introductions of Jane meeting Paul and Jack meeting Fred, to say: “this is who I AM!” I won’t portray anything I am not. This is how I present myself to the world which would be a true and deepest reflection of me. There will be no confusion from the start of any relationship.
Who came up with this hide-behind-a-mask thing anyway?
I understand society has placed a high level of excellence in performance. Be this. Dress like that. Work here. And drive that.
Our core need as human beings is to be accepted, loved, and included so of course we will fall in line with the mainstream and pretend I am everything I am not. Our need to show that our differences are valuable has become a point of striving to always prove ourselves. Fight for the justice and acknowledgment we so justly deserved. Who wants to be left alone and on one side because I don’t fit in a certain picture that society has deemed perfect?
I am perfect in my rounded humoristic way. Christ in Me is my fullest expression.
I have been something different for so long and those around me who only saw and experienced a glimpse of Charlene have it set in their minds that I am not capable of much or do not know a lot to add value. I don’t have a voice in their minds because I never spoke up. Now that I am stepping into my true self, I find it more difficult to get them to see who I am. They are so used to the old patterns.
I have betrayed myself all these years with my choice to hide behind a facade of something I am not. And looking at it now, it was purely to make others feel safe and cover my hide by not making a fool of myself. Where was my confidence? I should have believed a little bit more in my own expression of authenticity.
I don’t have this covered yet and I do believe I am a masterpiece in construction. I have been perfect all my life. Well. I am already a masterpiece. Let’s rephrase and say the “construction” part is acknowledging the fact that I am working on knowing I am that masterpiece.
In John 15 vs 15 Father says, No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not understand what his master is doing. But I have called you friends, because everything I have learned from My Father I have made known to you.
When you provide a safe space to a friend or any relationship you are entering into, for the person to be themselves that in itself is the safety net that will allow them to come into their full expression of who they are.
You will find the same for yourself. If you are allowed to feel safe and accepted to be yourself, imagine the freedom you will have being amongst others. There will never be any confusion as to who you are.
When you step out into the world, present yourself in the way that God sees you. You are no longer a slave. Find yourself in a community that allows just this very thing. They can see God in your reflection.
Do you realize that if we move from this safe authentic space by taking ownership of the awesome beings that we are, we will never have to work and strive to be presented as something that we are not? We will never ever have to prove ourselves.
Ask yourself the question: how do you want to be remembered?
Do you want to set the pace of your relationship and a standard for the rest of your life? To be presented uniquely and authentically? Find out who you are.
I want to encourage you. Sit with Yahweh on this topic. Allow Him to love you and reveal how He sees you. Learn to understand how deeply He knows you. And when you know, step into it and grab hold of it.
Set yourself free to be good enough for yourself.
I KNOOWS YOU!